Random Scribbling :-)

Finally, after a gap of 3 long years I am writing something that does not have an addressee and when I do not have to ponder about the typos, the formal tone that I need not to maintain throughout the conversation, the usual corporate world jargon's that I do not have to use to let know of my importance in this corporate industry.

I still think about those days when TIME used to be a flowing river and I never hesitated to take a mug full of water from it and use it according to my own terms. Today, I somehow have lost the MUG from my life though the river has not entirely dried up. 

Few lines that just I wrote down while gulping down the coffee hurriedly because I need to log off for now :-)

aaj waqt se maine dosti kar li hai,
kyuki usse dushmani mod lene ki aukat mujh mein nahin
aaj fizaon se maine firse kuch baatein kar li hain,
kyuki usse mooh modne ki aukat ab mujh mein nahin
aaj tere yaadon se maine saare uljhe rishte suljha lie hain.
kyuki tere haqiqat se mulaqat karne ki wo izazat aab mere rooh ko nahin :-) 

adhure khwaab ...!!!!!!

aaj neend khuli toh tujhe na jane kyon aur apne kareeb mehsoos kiya,

shayad tera yun lukachupi mere khwaab mein aane ka hi asar hai,

warna meri itni khuskismati kaha

ki tere wajood ko mai itne kareeb se mehsoos kar paau.

Good bye KOLKATA :)

Goodbye Kolkata,

It has been a beautiful journey of 22 yrs with you.Lets hope we meet after 3 months and even we dont,i would have enough memories of yours to feed me till i come back again.

I can never thank you for the ways you have helped me to stand on my feet after i stumbled everytime.You have taught me to let people go from my life and let them live a happy life without me as it would make their life a better place.You have taught me everything which helps a baby to transform into a man.

I dont have much words to describe what i am feeling right now because i have no more emotions left in me.Every emotion got drained away in past one year.
There are many "I wish i could" type memories i have but i dont want to think about them as they make me weak.

I dont know what is waiting for me their but i will always keep the learnings in my mind which you have taught me.

I will take it as it comes.

Just give every happiness to them to whom i have caused pain.

Will meet you again till then GOODBYE.

From,

R@y of hope

Book Review : Life is Always Aimless .... Unless You Love it

Title:
Life is Always Aimless .... Unless You Love it
SYNOPSIS: 
Do we you really know how much courage is required to listen to our own heart? 
Meet Akash, an young engineer, who dreams of becoming a writer. But all his works meet with is rejection from publisher. Will he ever be rewarded for listening to his heart? 
Smitten by wanderlust, adventurous Sandip does not care much about career, marriage or making a family. How will life treat him for listening to his heart? 
Possessor of a charming personality, Chirag, has a deep perchant for women. But deep down the motherless Chirag is temibly lonely. What is in store for this vulnerable young man? 
Maria Fernandez is a lonely and a less-than- looking young girl who firmly believes that possossing a tender heart is enough to make her world beautiful. Will ruthless life shatter her belief? 
As their life got seamlessly inter-wined with many others they realized that Life is Always Aimless .... Unless You Love it. 

BOOK AND AUTHOR:
Some books after you finished reading yet you yearn for some more pages which will depict what would happen next with the main protagonist of the story after the author put his final word followed by the last dot in the book.Life is Always Aimless .... Unless You Love it is one among them.Few of my friends suggested me this book a while ago.After i read the title and synopsis,i knew that it would be another emotionally woven story from Shristi publishers,so without wasting any time i ordered the book. The story is written by a debutant author Ratnadip Acharya who lives in the city of dreams -Mumbai and professionally he is an Electrical engineer though after i finished reading the book i got confused whether his real profession is engineering or writing.He is also a well trained street magician and a traveller.

PLOT:
The story revolves around four characters Sandip,Chirag,Maria and Akash being the main protagonist.Every character is somehow interconnected with each other yet pole apart with their thoughts.

Akash, who dreams to earn his living by making writing his profession,is an average looking boy.He constantly fights with the obstacles to keep his dream alive.Sometimes he has to kick his conscience hard when every ray of hope is parting from his life like a setting sun.But he knows that the dawn is not far away when the warm sunrays would greet his doorstep leading him to his dreamland.

Sandip,who believes to live each moment of life to its zenith.Someone who enjoys travelling all over the places as if a king is travelling his kingdom to know his people in a better way.While leaving each place he feels the pain of a mother getting detached from her childrens.He doesnot care about marriage or making a family.But whether he would be rewarded for his care free attitude or would be drowned is beautifully portrayed in the book.

Chirag,who has a charming personality enough to arouse the desires of any girl is what makes him popular among girls.But yet somewhere deep down his heart he longs for affection and love.Even after sleeping with girls he feels that it cannot fill the void created by the absence of maternal love.Whether he achieves ultimate affection or not is something you would want to find till last. 

Maria,a below average looking girl who is least bothered about her external looks and believes that all that a girl need to have is a tender and beautiful heart which she has.To her all that matters about a person is whether he/she does possess a beautiful and compassionate heart or not.But sometimes her conscience compells her to think whether the boy for whom she fell would get to look at her beautiful heart or her external imperfections would sheild the road to her beatuiful heart from him.

To me it is a beautiful story which tells you that life is not about making plans and executing them.It is also to enjoy each moment while executing the plans because you are not guaranteed of reaping the joys later.You hardly know what is coming on the way.Seldom we feel good about small things in life but real happiness comes from this small things which are priceless.Few lines in the book touched my heart and i have marked them.But there are few editing mistakes which really is disturbing and one hardly expects it from Shristi publishers.There are few places where you would get a jolt about the sudden turn that the author has taken.The flow is good and so is the narrative style.At first a bit slow but steadily it engrosses you completely.


Looking for more works from Ratnadip Acharya in coming days.

The show must go on :)

The same route
The same bus
The same fare
The same stoppage
And yet something pulls me back
I could have sent my father to take the marksheet
For a moment i regret of coming at this place again
But i cannot runaway now
I must enter the gates as time is running.

I take out my ID card as its mandatory now
I do not belong to this place anymore
They check my face with the photo on the card
They allow me to enter the place
I look at those stairs which i climbed many times
I look at the water cooler but the faces are new
I look at the library and hear giggles all around
For a moment i sit on the time machine
To reverse wheel of the clock
And i can see those happy faces including mine
I look at that green table and wooden chair
And a boy sitting their with his best pal
When I try to look closer i found solace
Soon the dream is broken by the head librarian
The clearance certificate  is ready and he wishes me good luck
For the last time i look at that table
But the boy is all alone their without his pal
I smile and go out of the library
I show my clearance certificate and take my marksheet
Time limit of my stay is over almost
I look back at the building for the final time
And "LIFE GOES ON", i whisper only.........

Hats off to you girl..!!!

Sometimes you think you are the one who is getting fucked everyday and your life is in complete mess.Then you meet with someone whose life is not only fucked up more than yours but he/she has to fight everyday with death to live.And you realize that you are blessed to have a life that you were cursing few minutes ago.

Last month as i went for an interview in Mumbai and waiting outside,a person came to me and started talking to me.He told me that his daughter was inside and having her technical round going on.He asked me about my college and the courses i opted after college.I told him that i was already placed in some other MNC and came for that interview only to accompany a friend of mine from Kolkata.

He told that his daughter did not get a job in last one year and never stopped trying.Our chit chat was going normal till then when he suddenly said that his daughter has diabetes.She was born with type 1 diabetes and she needs insulin thirce a day.Her father was telling me that the only reason he wanted  her daughter to get the job so that she could become independent and not be dependent on anyone for her expenses.I started praying for her as she was battling with the interviewers.

After the rounds got over, her father introduced her to me.The only thing i could say was "Good luck,you will get the job".She smiled and wished me the same.

Later her father called me and told that she got the job.I was happy from inside.The happiness was more because a close friend of mine whom i accompanied also cleared the interview.I will write about that in my next post.But that girl inspired me in more than one way.She is an inspiration to all i guess.

Hats off to you girl,

For the courage you have shown,

For the hardwork you have done,

For lighting up the soul of many who have met you before,

I was broken with little issues of mine,

Like many I was hopeless and thought things would go hard

But your character affected me in more than one way,

I cannot thank you for the change you brought in me,
Cause my words wont be able to soothe the pain you have.

When you were inside the room,

Fighting with the interviewers for the job,

For a moment you might have thought,

That your failure would affect your father,

Believe me girl you were right,

Your failure would have affected your father,

He would have hugged you more tightly,

He would have kissed your pain more passionately,

Cause your existence in this world is everything to your father.

We might not have talked for hours,

We might not know each other for long,

But being a stranger, you have taught me, 

How to deal with pain and still smile, 

I prayed for you so that you get the job,

Not because that job would measure your credibility,

But because people like you should be reawarded,

And then our eyes met for the first time,

You might have felt awkward being stared by a stranger,

What a shameless i am as i admit that i was staring at you,

Cause your eyes were radiating positive rays and body was radiating positive vibes.

Then few words we spoke and then we wished each other,

Had the venue not been an interview location,

I would have touched your feet happily,

You have kicked every obstacle that came in front of you,

You have not let your fathers hope getting smashed,

You have survived each day and scared death to come,

People like you make this world a better place,

People like you are an inspiration for many,

I wish you all the luck for your battle with life, 

Hats off to you girl,

I cannot thank you for the change you brought in me,
Cause my words wont be able to soothe the pain you have.

Let me look back for a final time and salute you 2013 for your lessons.Lets hope 2014 to be a surprise package for me :)

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