Random Scribbling :-)

Finally, after a gap of 3 long years I am writing something that does not have an addressee and when I do not have to ponder about the typos, the formal tone that I need not to maintain throughout the conversation, the usual corporate world jargon's that I do not have to use to let know of my importance in this corporate industry.

I still think about those days when TIME used to be a flowing river and I never hesitated to take a mug full of water from it and use it according to my own terms. Today, I somehow have lost the MUG from my life though the river has not entirely dried up. 

Few lines that just I wrote down while gulping down the coffee hurriedly because I need to log off for now :-)

aaj waqt se maine dosti kar li hai,
kyuki usse dushmani mod lene ki aukat mujh mein nahin
aaj fizaon se maine firse kuch baatein kar li hain,
kyuki usse mooh modne ki aukat ab mujh mein nahin
aaj tere yaadon se maine saare uljhe rishte suljha lie hain.
kyuki tere haqiqat se mulaqat karne ki wo izazat aab mere rooh ko nahin :-) 

adhure khwaab ...!!!!!!

aaj neend khuli toh tujhe na jane kyon aur apne kareeb mehsoos kiya,

shayad tera yun lukachupi mere khwaab mein aane ka hi asar hai,

warna meri itni khuskismati kaha

ki tere wajood ko mai itne kareeb se mehsoos kar paau.

Good bye KOLKATA :)

Goodbye Kolkata,

It has been a beautiful journey of 22 yrs with you.Lets hope we meet after 3 months and even we dont,i would have enough memories of yours to feed me till i come back again.

I can never thank you for the ways you have helped me to stand on my feet after i stumbled everytime.You have taught me to let people go from my life and let them live a happy life without me as it would make their life a better place.You have taught me everything which helps a baby to transform into a man.

I dont have much words to describe what i am feeling right now because i have no more emotions left in me.Every emotion got drained away in past one year.
There are many "I wish i could" type memories i have but i dont want to think about them as they make me weak.

I dont know what is waiting for me their but i will always keep the learnings in my mind which you have taught me.

I will take it as it comes.

Just give every happiness to them to whom i have caused pain.

Will meet you again till then GOODBYE.

From,

R@y of hope

Book Review : Life is Always Aimless .... Unless You Love it

Title:
Life is Always Aimless .... Unless You Love it
SYNOPSIS: 
Do we you really know how much courage is required to listen to our own heart? 
Meet Akash, an young engineer, who dreams of becoming a writer. But all his works meet with is rejection from publisher. Will he ever be rewarded for listening to his heart? 
Smitten by wanderlust, adventurous Sandip does not care much about career, marriage or making a family. How will life treat him for listening to his heart? 
Possessor of a charming personality, Chirag, has a deep perchant for women. But deep down the motherless Chirag is temibly lonely. What is in store for this vulnerable young man? 
Maria Fernandez is a lonely and a less-than- looking young girl who firmly believes that possossing a tender heart is enough to make her world beautiful. Will ruthless life shatter her belief? 
As their life got seamlessly inter-wined with many others they realized that Life is Always Aimless .... Unless You Love it. 

BOOK AND AUTHOR:
Some books after you finished reading yet you yearn for some more pages which will depict what would happen next with the main protagonist of the story after the author put his final word followed by the last dot in the book.Life is Always Aimless .... Unless You Love it is one among them.Few of my friends suggested me this book a while ago.After i read the title and synopsis,i knew that it would be another emotionally woven story from Shristi publishers,so without wasting any time i ordered the book. The story is written by a debutant author Ratnadip Acharya who lives in the city of dreams -Mumbai and professionally he is an Electrical engineer though after i finished reading the book i got confused whether his real profession is engineering or writing.He is also a well trained street magician and a traveller.

PLOT:
The story revolves around four characters Sandip,Chirag,Maria and Akash being the main protagonist.Every character is somehow interconnected with each other yet pole apart with their thoughts.

Akash, who dreams to earn his living by making writing his profession,is an average looking boy.He constantly fights with the obstacles to keep his dream alive.Sometimes he has to kick his conscience hard when every ray of hope is parting from his life like a setting sun.But he knows that the dawn is not far away when the warm sunrays would greet his doorstep leading him to his dreamland.

Sandip,who believes to live each moment of life to its zenith.Someone who enjoys travelling all over the places as if a king is travelling his kingdom to know his people in a better way.While leaving each place he feels the pain of a mother getting detached from her childrens.He doesnot care about marriage or making a family.But whether he would be rewarded for his care free attitude or would be drowned is beautifully portrayed in the book.

Chirag,who has a charming personality enough to arouse the desires of any girl is what makes him popular among girls.But yet somewhere deep down his heart he longs for affection and love.Even after sleeping with girls he feels that it cannot fill the void created by the absence of maternal love.Whether he achieves ultimate affection or not is something you would want to find till last. 

Maria,a below average looking girl who is least bothered about her external looks and believes that all that a girl need to have is a tender and beautiful heart which she has.To her all that matters about a person is whether he/she does possess a beautiful and compassionate heart or not.But sometimes her conscience compells her to think whether the boy for whom she fell would get to look at her beautiful heart or her external imperfections would sheild the road to her beatuiful heart from him.

To me it is a beautiful story which tells you that life is not about making plans and executing them.It is also to enjoy each moment while executing the plans because you are not guaranteed of reaping the joys later.You hardly know what is coming on the way.Seldom we feel good about small things in life but real happiness comes from this small things which are priceless.Few lines in the book touched my heart and i have marked them.But there are few editing mistakes which really is disturbing and one hardly expects it from Shristi publishers.There are few places where you would get a jolt about the sudden turn that the author has taken.The flow is good and so is the narrative style.At first a bit slow but steadily it engrosses you completely.


Looking for more works from Ratnadip Acharya in coming days.

The show must go on :)

The same route
The same bus
The same fare
The same stoppage
And yet something pulls me back
I could have sent my father to take the marksheet
For a moment i regret of coming at this place again
But i cannot runaway now
I must enter the gates as time is running.

I take out my ID card as its mandatory now
I do not belong to this place anymore
They check my face with the photo on the card
They allow me to enter the place
I look at those stairs which i climbed many times
I look at the water cooler but the faces are new
I look at the library and hear giggles all around
For a moment i sit on the time machine
To reverse wheel of the clock
And i can see those happy faces including mine
I look at that green table and wooden chair
And a boy sitting their with his best pal
When I try to look closer i found solace
Soon the dream is broken by the head librarian
The clearance certificate  is ready and he wishes me good luck
For the last time i look at that table
But the boy is all alone their without his pal
I smile and go out of the library
I show my clearance certificate and take my marksheet
Time limit of my stay is over almost
I look back at the building for the final time
And "LIFE GOES ON", i whisper only.........

Hats off to you girl..!!!

Sometimes you think you are the one who is getting fucked everyday and your life is in complete mess.Then you meet with someone whose life is not only fucked up more than yours but he/she has to fight everyday with death to live.And you realize that you are blessed to have a life that you were cursing few minutes ago.

Last month as i went for an interview in Mumbai and waiting outside,a person came to me and started talking to me.He told me that his daughter was inside and having her technical round going on.He asked me about my college and the courses i opted after college.I told him that i was already placed in some other MNC and came for that interview only to accompany a friend of mine from Kolkata.

He told that his daughter did not get a job in last one year and never stopped trying.Our chit chat was going normal till then when he suddenly said that his daughter has diabetes.She was born with type 1 diabetes and she needs insulin thirce a day.Her father was telling me that the only reason he wanted  her daughter to get the job so that she could become independent and not be dependent on anyone for her expenses.I started praying for her as she was battling with the interviewers.

After the rounds got over, her father introduced her to me.The only thing i could say was "Good luck,you will get the job".She smiled and wished me the same.

Later her father called me and told that she got the job.I was happy from inside.The happiness was more because a close friend of mine whom i accompanied also cleared the interview.I will write about that in my next post.But that girl inspired me in more than one way.She is an inspiration to all i guess.

Hats off to you girl,

For the courage you have shown,

For the hardwork you have done,

For lighting up the soul of many who have met you before,

I was broken with little issues of mine,

Like many I was hopeless and thought things would go hard

But your character affected me in more than one way,

I cannot thank you for the change you brought in me,
Cause my words wont be able to soothe the pain you have.

When you were inside the room,

Fighting with the interviewers for the job,

For a moment you might have thought,

That your failure would affect your father,

Believe me girl you were right,

Your failure would have affected your father,

He would have hugged you more tightly,

He would have kissed your pain more passionately,

Cause your existence in this world is everything to your father.

We might not have talked for hours,

We might not know each other for long,

But being a stranger, you have taught me, 

How to deal with pain and still smile, 

I prayed for you so that you get the job,

Not because that job would measure your credibility,

But because people like you should be reawarded,

And then our eyes met for the first time,

You might have felt awkward being stared by a stranger,

What a shameless i am as i admit that i was staring at you,

Cause your eyes were radiating positive rays and body was radiating positive vibes.

Then few words we spoke and then we wished each other,

Had the venue not been an interview location,

I would have touched your feet happily,

You have kicked every obstacle that came in front of you,

You have not let your fathers hope getting smashed,

You have survived each day and scared death to come,

People like you make this world a better place,

People like you are an inspiration for many,

I wish you all the luck for your battle with life, 

Hats off to you girl,

I cannot thank you for the change you brought in me,
Cause my words wont be able to soothe the pain you have.

Let me look back for a final time and salute you 2013 for your lessons.Lets hope 2014 to be a surprise package for me :)

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Not everything in this universe has a name...!!

Dear YOU(2013)


One fine morning you greeted me,

Sowing the ray of hope inside my heart,

With my eyes blinking, i didnot question thee,

The faith instilled pushed me for a new start.

Hope and faith keeps everyone going,

Still I was trembling from inside,

Though it was not a wintry morning,

I was searching a blanket of my past to hide.

Before you came into my life,

I was so sure of few and their positive vibes,
It was the beginning of an end you made me realize,

Still I kept my hopes alive for upcoming bumpy rides.

Can i ask you something?

Why you forced me to go back,

When you knew the disaster forthcoming,

Hey you might not have the answer but dare not turn your back.

How do i only blame you for my bleeding heart,

You advised me to learn from my past,

But I closed my eyes and believed my heart,

For once in my life I was so sure of my act.

For few days I dint know what went wrong,

For few days I kept looking at those blank pages, 

For few days I pretended without them i was strong,

For few days I found me locked inside those cages.

As days passed by you came to my rescue

You taught me not everything is destined to go right,

You taught me to write a new story on those pages rather to drag the past,

You taught me sometimes pretending is the only option left and becomes a habit,

You taught me its our willpower which determines how long our imprisonmet would last.

Today when i am on the verge of entering to a new world,

So badly i want to hold onto them,

But the string that connected us is lost i learned,

And i have to deal alone the mayhem.

Its true we dont need everyone in this caravan,

Few make the odyssey so beautiful ,

Memories get etched in our heart till the end of marathon,

But why i dwell in their memories after getting snubbed is doubtful.

Its time for you to say good bye,

Its time for you to make way for a new lesson of life,

But i will keep you alive in my heart till i die,

Cause you taught me how to live and let go after paying a hefty price.

From,
An unvanquished fellow.

ALL THE BEST as a new dawn awaits you...!!!!

The lane has not changed
Its the same one,
The one we shared for long,
To your simplicity;i was so fond
I visited it recently,
Was walking down reluctantly,
Alone i was;only memories with me
I sat under the oak tree,
My worreis;i set them free.

It was beautiful indeed,
As if happy times re-lived,
The times which i do remember,
And the moments we shared together,
I took a deep sigh,
I was going high.
The oak tree became jealous,
My stint with our memories made him furious,
The shadow soothing my soul;he withdrew
Leaves started falling.

It made me encounter my present,
The bond between us is dwindling,
But i do not fear even if it breaks,
So many times i tried,
Its only ignorance you shot at me,
Doubted my intentions,
You showed me the hard way,
Left me bewildered at the bay,
I waited.
Its too late now to reconcile,
For we will embark on two different paths,
Where uncertainity  prevails certainity,
But the unfinished chapter that we left,
May be not now,
May be it will take time,
May be the oak tree
Will undergo many seasonal changes,
To finish it,i will try my best.

For now i shall not look back,
Else i would lose sight from the track,
Promises are broken,
The base is now left shaken.
Still the care and love i have,
For a dear one like you,
Will never diminish with time,
Neither it will change with  mood swings of mine.

Rest i do not care,
Let the time unravel the knots,
Let us deal with our jolts.
And if you ever visit that lane,
Sit under the oak tree for once,
And if the leaves start falling,
Be sure that the oak tree is jealous,
You will realise the bond was not pretentious.

Goodbyes do not scare me much
So used to them i am,
It cannot take away the memories,
Neither i will keep confronting them too often,
The ending is not like what i dreamt,
May be the almighty have better plans,
Which times will unravel for sure,
Till then
ALL THE BEST is all i can say,
As a new dawn awaits you to play.

You need a PROBLEM,rest will follow..!!!

Some people come across a PROBLEM and try to adjust themselves according to the PROBLEM.
Some people come across a PROBLEM and try to remember all the great heroes who during their own times found a solution to deal with the then persisting PROBLEM for inspiration.Then they dream about what they can possibly do.But the thing is that they never execute their plan.

And then there are people like Arunachalam Murunganantham who not only dreamt about tackling a
                                 
PROBLEM but actually had the courage to implement his idea into reality.

Its almost a year ago,while surfing news channels i came across a program showing a man who recieved a divorce threat from his wife and a threat to get backlisted from his own community.Now in India its not always the same.Unfortunately after 65 years of independence,a woman stands in front of the gun.
So i put down the TV remote and started watching.But for some reasons i had to go out so read the catchy line "A man recieved a divorce threat from his wife and many other threats from his community and yet goes on discovering the cheapest sanitary pads for women ".As i was in a hurry so failed to watch the complete program.

But as i was watching the TED videos few days back,i came across the video of Arunachalam Murunganantham.And believe me after i finished watching it,i had given this man a standing ovation with the crowds present in the audtitorium.This man explained what all it takes to live a meaningful life.And as you are scratching your head,the answer according to him is-
To live a meaningfull life,All you need is a PROBLEM.Your work,Your thingking should be dedicated towards addressing the problem with your designed solution.
He addressed a topic which unfortunately is still considered as a TABOO in India.The topic is
SANITARY NAPKINS.

He invented a way to manufacture cheapest Sanitary Napkins.But it was not possible in a single day.He faced lot of criticisims from his very own people.His wife had threatend him for a divorce and he was chased out from his own village.Despite all the struggle,he went on to fulfill his dream.He embarked on this journey so that his idea would help her wife to use healthy sanitary napkins other than rag which is unhealthy and unhygenic but when his idea took shape in the form of reality it became a boon for every women who could not afford branded sanitary napkins.
The best part in his speech is when he said that he had set up his factory thousand of kilometeres from the reach of MNCs so that it is not used for buisness purpose which mostly MNCs does.

And all this he did being a school dropout.During his speech he used incorrect english which many GRAMMAR NAZIS roaming all over would shout at but he conveyed his idea because communication is not about speaking a language fluently.The point he proved is that education does not always confirms ones ability to learn the values of life.Its how much one takes from his surroundings to learn those values.Even maximum educated people would  have not been able to do what he did.

I still remember the day when our biology teacher skipped few pages from the chapter Reproductive System.She hurriedly finished the chapter and told us to finish the leftover at home.And that was the day the knowledge about Menstruation remained unclear in our heads.Though we cleared it later but by then the word Menstraution turned out to be a part of a joke for boys and for girls it turned out to be something as frightening as a burning flame.
To me menstruation is the same natural process like SHAVING beard is for us.But the way it has been projected through the years has made it a Taboo.There is nothing to hide about it.A child when not told about menstruation in class would certainly assume it to be a off topic and would google about it.Then what is the point in hiding it from him/her.But if the child is taught  in a proper way in the class then there are high chances that he would  percieve it in the correct way.

Not everyone of us can become Arunachalam Murunganantham but we can try in our own ways to make this world a better place.This person has proved once again that the journey of miles can be completed only if the traveller has taken the first small step.Kudos to this man for his invention.
You can listen to this man speaking about his invention in the video posted below-

His Wikipedia Page
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Arunachalam_Muruganantham.

Franklin Templeton Investments partnered the TEDxGateway Mumbai in December 2012..

Thank you.

PARENTS:Take Care of them,Rest will be taken care by GOD.

"Tring- Tring, the phone rang…!"
A voice full of calmness echoed from the other side
"Hello,Can i speak to Mr.Samar ??"
"Yes" he replied
"Hi Samar its Avinash here.I would like to know about the health insurance scheme you have chosen"
"The last thing i dont want after a hectic schedule at office is to talk to some health insurance agent.Sorry i do not have time."He interrupted and lashed out at the person on the other side of the call.

He put his cellphone on the table and later activated DNDs(Do not disturb service) on his number so that incidents like this do not repeat in future.After spending almost 12 hours in office and travelling from office to home in heavy traffic he always try to manage time to spend with his family.This stupid calls from mobile companies,health insurance agents,real state agents used to ignite the demon in him and all the anger that he was suppressing in his heart against his TL(Team lead) and project manager, he would vent all on those unlucky yet chained agents.Sometimes he enjoyed shouting at them.

Samar had joined the company almost a year ago.Once Vinay told him about something that he ignored then.Now when he remembered his words,the name of the person who was on the other side of the call resembled with the name Vinay told him about.Vinay told him that almost all of their batchmates got a call from this person who would address himself as some Avinash and would enquire about the health insurance plan the employee has chosen.
In this IT industry every MNC offers some health insurance schemes that cover the employees and their parents.To get the benefeit in any medical emergency,the employees need to pay a premium amount annually which is deducted from their salary.Samar always thought this things to be a secondary one and at times even unimportant.The next day when he went office, he was humilated by his project manager in front of the entire batch.The crime he committed was that he only asked his project manager about his poor appraisal rating as he had worked hard than many throughout the year.

Notwithstading the humilation,Samar was fuming from inside.When he reached home he skipped his dinner and went straight to his bedroom.He was cursing my PM badly.Suddenly his cell virbated again.As he picked up, the same voice echoed from the other side
"Hello Samar,its Avinash here.
I will not take more than two minutes time of your busy schedule.I just want to know the health insurance plan you have chosen.Now a days its important to choose a balance insurance plan.I can help you in choosing one"
"Listen Mr. Avinash,I dont know you but if you have not chosen any insurance scheme for you yet then please choose one because if you disturb me again then surely i would beat you till death and then you would be in serious need of your insurance scheme"he interrupted him and vented out everything that he was holding back since morning in that one line.

Few days passed and one day while he was busy in his work he recieved a call.It was Pihu on the other side.
"Papa rush quicky,Dadu is not well"
"Do not worry beta.Tell mamma.She will take care of your dadu"
"Papa she cant.Doctors are saying that he has been put on ventilation and nothing can be predicted within next 24 hours"the phone slipped from my hands.
The news was unexpected as Samar’s father was a healthy man and has always been concious about his diet which many ignores at the age of 77.A fear gripped his and he was like a small kid praying continuosly to God for the well being of his father.Its when we are in complete mess and totally screwed up in life that we remember the all mighty and he was too not an exception.He suddenly calculated in his mind about the available cash at that moment to him and it turned out to be approximately 1 lakh 17 thousand rupees.Rest that he has saved till then for emergency situation like this was in his bank account.But adding to his cursed fate he somehow forgot that it was a ALL INDIA BANDH going that day and even banking sector was participating in that strike so the option of withdrawing cash from bank ceased.So he kicked off his bike taking the cash from home on the way and headed to B.C. Birla Heart Research Institute.

He reached hospital where he enquired about his father to the receptionist.And the first thing before letting him know how his father was doing they told him to deposit 2 lakh rupees and to consult with Dr. Shweta Bhagve.He hugged Pihu who was continuously sobbing and Navya was standing a few meteres away.She stared at him and gave him "Everything will be fine " type expression.Samar wondered how during the most difficult situation women can withstand the pressure and yet can be so calm at the sametime which men lack certainly.He thanked Navya for being there.Suddenly he saw a doctor coming out from ICU.When he asked her about his father she told that he had a massive heart attack leading to blockage of arteries.The last option available to them was to go for Bypass surgery.She told him to deposit 2 lacs immediately and to sign a bond.He requested her to go for the operation and assured her that the rest 80 thousand ruppees would be deposited the following day.But she didnot listen and also warned him that delaying the operation would be fatal for his father.He scratched his head and almost reached out to every possible contacts that he could but still he was getting short of 30 thousand bucks.

As tears started rolling down Navya came to him and offered her earrings and chain and told to offer them to the accounts department so that they can take them back once the bills are cleared.As Samar approached the accounts department they denied him and he was left helpless again but was astonished to hear that someone already paid the remaining amount.When he enquired about that living God who did such good to him, they said that he left a note for him.But he gnored the note and kept it in his pocket and ran to ICU room no 21.The red light was switched on which took away a burden from his shoulder.He thought if only he had planned some insurance plan for his parents without keeping money in some bank account,he could have avoided this mess.

And a message tone beeped.
It was from Vinay"Hey buddy i could only arrange 10k and on my way.Will be there wihtin 15 minutes.By the way our PM got transfered to onsite and we have a new one as Avinash.And we found out that he was the same guy who used to enquire about insurance scheme"
As he read the last sentence he hurriedly took the note from his pocket and read it

Hello Samar,
Before i introduce myself to you i want to tell you something.Around 5 years ago i was facing the same situation that you are in right now.I was earning a decent salary and never bothered to plan my savings and used to keep a hefty amount from my salalry in banks offering 14% interest rates on fixed deposits.But when i needed the money most,i ran out of cash and my ill fate took away my mother.I lost her.Despite working in a MNC i could not arrange the cash and it was only because of my foolishness as i lacked in looking at the bigger picture of life.The only difference back then was that no one helped me with the remainng cash.So from then i made a promise to me and to my dead mother that whoever comes into our organization,i would request each of them to opt a balance insurance plan.I never told my identity to anyone as it was easy that way and i was also serving onsite.So it helped me keeping my identity safe.

But today when i was posted offshore and took the responsibility of your team as project manager i was infromed about your situation.So i paid the reamaining amount.I am not any God Samar.I only did this because i was looking for last 5 years to reduce the sin that i had committed.Everyone is not lucky Samar.But atleast we can plan our earning so that our parents who spent their everything to give us a better life can get the benefeit when it is needed.And that is the reason that i called you twice.I dont know if you would still want to kill me or not but one thing i can tell you that in life we often get so much self centered that we forget about them without whom we would not have reached where we are today.So we need jolts to come back and to face the reality.I was not lucky that day but i know that my mother is blessing me for my deed and today when i will sing bedtime prayers i would feel a little less chained of my sin.
And if you want to repay me then join my movement and encourage each one of your colleagues to plan their earning and make them aware of this emergency situations.Who knows how many Samar and Avinash are still living their life without looking at the bigger picture of life.
Take care of your family.They are the ones who will stand beside you even when your conscience fails to stand by you.
Looking forward to work with you.

From
Avinash

Tears were rolling down his cheeks.He scolded himself for hurting Avinash with harsh words without even letting him complete his part during that phonecall.Still he helped him when he needed most.Avinash was not less than any living God to him.He thanked him silently from the bottom of his heart.
He thought whether he deserved enough to have parents who would still forgive him for his mistakes,to get a girl like Navya who accepted his family like her own, to have a little angel Pihu in his life,to have colleagues who tried to help him out however smal or big the problem was,to get a helping hand from Avinash who was no less than a living God to him.

Suddenly someone patted him on his shoulders
"Samar the operation is successful but we have to keep your father under strict observation till next 48 hours"Dr Shweta said.

Samar thought that he was saved from committing a sin.He smiled and cried both at the same time.May be he needed the blow.He hugged Pihu and Navya and prayed God for mercy.

He saw something scribbled on a board on the wall beside the doors of ICU.He read-

“LOOL AT THE BIGGER PICTURE OF LIFE
BEFORE YOU ENTER ”

Meet an old friend...!!!

                                                        Click for the image source.

After we passout from our schools we hardly get in touch with our school friends.School days when life was like a smooth road and we were like kids riding the bicycle without knowing where that road would lead us to.Yes everyone of us miss those days and we always search a way to have a glimpse of those days once again.But after those carefree days are gone our life also drives us on a different road which never promises to be a smooth one.Sometimes we enjoy the ups and downs while shifting the gears and sometimes we are shattered by few downs and take time to hold the steering of life once again.And as we get busy shaping our life we hardly get time to meet old friends.

The same happened with me too.After i passed out from school,i got busy shifting the gears as life was driving me onto a completely new road where stoppages had different names.And in the meanwhile i lost touch with a good school friend of mine.As i visited Mumbai last time and was plannig to visit some places during the monsoon,suddenly the thought of meeting him popped into my mind.For meeting him i had to travel from Mumbai to Pune.It was my last chance to meet him as i would not be visiting Mumbai in a year unless i am posted there for my job.So i boarded Singhad Express from Thane.The journey was a pure bliss.Words will be short to portray the beautiful nature that i witnessed.The waterfalls will take you to a world so much different from the one you are currently in.It took around three and half hours to reach Pune.I waited near the stairs of platform no 1 for him to pick me up.After almost 20 odd minutes he turned up and i spotted ROHIT  in the crowd first.And we ran and hugged each other.It lasted for 20 seconds but enough to make me believe that nothing changed in last four years between us.The last time we hugged when we bade adieu each other on the farewell day. 

It took 30 minutes to reach his home.Uncle,aunty and his sister greeted me with a smile.Soon it was dinner time and my tummy tasted some pure marathi veg dishes.It was a lovely experience having those dishes as it brought back those memories of chats we used to had in recess time while relishing each other tiffins.After a lovely dinner we jumped to bed quickly as i was tired.But when two old friends meet after a long gap then no matter how much tired they are,they will chit chat all the time.We talked about the times that we both encountered in past years.He told me about his college friends and about his college life and how his academics of MCA keeps him busy.I was also being enquired about whether somone came into my life or not.But the excitement that he held for so long turned into a sad smile as i replied him in negation.And then we finally dozed off promising each other to finish the remaining tales in the next morning.

Next morning we went upstairs and talked for long under the cloudy sky.The same sky under which we used to sit and discuss about how days after school would be like.And as it is said the moment you start enjoying life,it is when time passes by like a speedy wind.The wind soothes your soul but only for a short duration.We realized that time flew past quickly and still so many unsaid words to be said.But i had to return Mumbai on the same day.So after lunch,i left his house and headed to SWARGATE.The main bus depot in PUNE from where busses for MUMBAI departs.I bought a ticket for THANE and there was still 15 minutes for departure.A nostalgia gripped me as i knew it would be a long time when i meet him again.But i was happy from inside.The happiness that i waited for so long lastly kissed me.Its true that the kiss lasted for a short time but the ectasy will be with me for long.I hugged him for the last time.But this itme we didnot promise each other of being in touch as life in past few years taught us a lesson that sometimes it is better not to promise anything to anyone.Because when we fail to keep those promises we get hurt but happiness out of any expectation is the best.We bade each other goodbyes with a smile and i boarded the bus.

The weather was a chilled one and return journey was even more beautiful as it was monsoon in Pune.Witnessed soothing views from the bus but was sad as i could not take clear pics because of raindrops on the window pane.There was a continuous smile on my face like those old days.Beside me there was a lady with whom i was chit chatting about the scenery outside.

"Hey you are very happy i guess..any special reason???"She finally asked me.

"Meet an old friend...you will see the curve your life has taken while you were busy shifting the gears...!!!" I replied.

I dont know why i said something weird like that.And as expected she gave me an expression like i failed to give correct answer in front of Amitabh Bacchan in KBC. 

Finally i dozed off listening to the tune Bavra Mann Dekhne Chala Ek Sapna. :) :) 

Thanks for the patience you showed while reading this long post. :)

What if .....???

Life is indeed an enigma,with so many riddles to solve,
Some follow certain rules,some do not maintain any decorum,
Yet we hope to unravel those,ruining our present and living in future,
Tomorrow is never promised,it is the present that we should nurture.
Always you will get the second chance,you know that is not the culture.

Sometimes you have to act while breaking the pact
Heal the wounds kept open for so long,
or say sorry to someone you did wrong,
Express your feelings to the one you care,
or see someone smile and the reason being you dear,
Thank the one for being with you so long,
or clear the misunderstandings that once hurt the bond,
Do the things you always avoided till now
or help someone keeping his/her vow. 

It is scary to even think of not getting a second shot,
Still we ignore when we are given another chance.
We are so busy in unraveling the tiny knot,
Need a blow to wake up from the deep trance.
What if tomorrow never comes???
What if not given another chance???
Yet we surrender without trying,ruining our present and living in future,
Tomorrow is never promised,it is the present that we should nurture.
Always you will get the second chance,you know that is not the culture.

BLESSED I am..!!!

They said let the wind blow

It will ease the pain,

I said the wind will follow its course

Why to expect any gain.

They said let the sea waves hit you 

It will make you strong,

I said i am not any chord
Why to expect any melodious song.

They said let the parting sun 

Promise you a beautiful dawn,

I said the sun will set into darkness

Why to expect as i will be left to yawn.

They said let someone close to you 

Hold your hand,

I said i had enough of ignorance

Why to expect when i know their stand.

Terribly shaken with a fear of loss

Slowly i walked away from them,

Into the darkness of my thoughts

To search for the long lost peace.

Suddenly a gentle stroke in my hair i felt

And a voice i heard,

The voice so familiar to me

Yet so distatnt it seemed.

Life is a boulevard of broken dreams

Some are bad and some are good

Some will let you be the king

Some will snatch your kingdom

But you must desire to dream

Otherwise at the end you will only scream.

I opened my eyes and saw her smiling

I thought how easy for her

to love me knowing my flaws,

to know me completely,

to be sure that i had a terrible dream.

I hugged my MOTHER 

Promised to be by her side forever,

I felt a constant inner peace

and the dawn was beautiful indeed.

Come to me...!!!

Smile,the world will dance with you,
Ignore,when the world is dancing without you,
Love,when the world is throwing stones at you,
Care,it would make someone belive in you.

Soar,when everyone belittle you,
Keep your hope alive,when everyone lost faith in you,
Keep your mouth shut,when everyone blabbering about you,
Share,it would lessen the pain eating away the soul in you.

When everyone has turned you down,
When everyone left you without any reason,
When every broken promises tear you apart,
Come to me,i will not let you fall,
Come to me,i will not let you down,
Come to me,i will care for you then too,
Come to me,cause i know the pain of going alone. 

For that you have to travel miles
May have to cross some bridges too,
Thorns you will get on the way
Do not fear,
I will be standing right on the shore,
With a boat that will take us away
to a distant land
Where WE overshadows I,
Where LOVE overcomes HATRED,
Where every DAWN is BEAUTIFUL,
Where HUMANITY is above ALL.

But now for a while
I must face the storm alone,
I cannot risk you with me
The surviving chance is low,

The journey ahead is stormier 

Much more scarier than i thought.

So,let me put the sail,
Let it propel me through the storm
And if i survive
Come to me,i will not fail you again
My unsaid words,i will reveal
And if i dont
Come to me,search my lifeless body
while i lay in peace,
Words on this paper
will wait for your gentle touch.
.

P.S.- a poem for my short story..thought of sharing.. :)

Thank you..!!!

Believe me..!!!

Today you were not the same
dont know why,
May be i did something bad
that broke the trust you had.

You smiled 
as if things going right,
I asked  the reason
that is holding you back,
You said everything is fine
and i worry too much.

I held your hand
promised that i will not let you go
You smiled again
as if the promise is not new anymore.

I hugged you tight,
Promised my words will not fail,
Your smile was gone
I sensed you didnt hug me back.

After a long pause you muttered
I am free to go
You will not pull me back
Cause i suffered too much.

I asked again
the reason of teardrops in your eyes,
You looked away
Oh now i know
The reason of your being different
You fear i wil leave you ??
You fear she would take me away from you??

You are wrong,
How do i make you believe,
Its you who spoke with me
When everyone got busy with their life.
Its you who told me
life is like this always,
People do forget once the serving is done.
Its you and on your shoulders
i vented everything out,.
Its you who vowed
to be with me everytime.
when i lost my shine.

Believe me 
no one can take me away,
as i am made to live this way
sooner she gonna leave me
and  i will need you back
to fill the void.

Believe me 
no one can break the bond,
sooner she gonna break my trust
and i will need you back
to repair my heart.

Believe me 
no one can keep us apart,
we will meet again
when i will watch her go 
out of my sight
and i will need you back
to wash away my eyes.

Believe me and my words
cause they are true
we will have our time again
when she will be chasing her dreams
without me
and i will need you back
to embrace me.  



P.S.-Here "you" represent the loneliness that the person is addressing.
As my 1st exam of last semester was not bad so wrote this piece and broke my own rule of not coming back to this blogging world before 10 days.Do pray that the rest goes good too.

Thank you.!!!

Early Dawn hours..!!!

Being awake at this early dawn hours and turning pages of my book, a feeling constantly making me restless.

That feeling is beyond words and emotions.I knew that sooner i would be aroused by this feeling.And now when i am stuck in this trap,i am feeling blue.I want to run away from all these craps which in some way or other trying to pull me back and  telling me to press the rewind button of the memories i had lived in past 3-4 years.

Many a times i tried to forget those memories which do not belong with me in my present but still there is something which by some means or other forced me to stay with them.

Not more than 24 hours left  at the commencement of my last semester exam,i still remember the day when i  was hell scared before giving my 1st exam of engineering.

Things were so different then than now.Between that day and today,it seems a decade to me not only 4 years.A decade in which many bonds i lost and few i found and me really unsure if i can hold on to them.

And that feeling of uncertainity is somehow hurting me deep inside.

I know soon i have to leave some otherwise once again i would mess everything.It would be painful for them but soon things will be same again.And i am happy that they have their best buddies to take care of them.If i stay, things will fall apart like everytime and we would become strangers..
I want them to be happy and successful in every sphere of their life which i know that they will be sooner or later.

So its better to leave with keeping happy moments alive.And i know some memories i will keep with me forever cause they made me something out of nothing,they made me believe that things always dont go the way we planned,they taught me that its ok to fall at times but it is damn important to get up and carry with the  journey,they taught me that exepcting from someone is a big mistake we can do at times (though i didnt learn anything and still expect and i really dont think that i am going  learn the art of not expecting from someone).

I always fear the silence which takes place after a beautiful time spent.And that silence is enough to break that bond but not enough to wash away the memories.And that is why i feel miserable because i have to carry those memories when i know that the other one is travelling on a different railway track and will never stop in the nearby station as he/she is a galoping train who already washed of those memories.

So as i hear the chirping of birds and witness the 1st ray of sunlight,i feel happy that i am going to miss few of them after few more days when meeting with them will not be a regular routine.Because if you do not miss someone then they really dont matter to you anymore.


Lonely i am,Carrying some broken dreams
Trying to mend broken ties,getting drown more in the turf. 
I sat on the shore,staring hard into the infinity
peace can give goosebump too,i realized silently.
Sea waves do not judge,i rolled with them being lost 
they kissed,patted me hard
for once i let them take away my guard.
Things which i did not say,i regret now of being toung tied
and the remnants of evrything died.
Caged with shackles and misfortunes of my life
I am trying hard to end this loneliness of mine.

Lonely i am,Carrying some hidden fears
Trying to deal with them,but they leave me in tears
I sat on the terrace,staring hard into the endless sky
Why moon always steal the show and stars lose the shine?
The thought makes me numb but i smiled for a while
Cause stars play its act when moon hid behind 
As i wait for this twilight hours to pass,
I know my time will be over soon 
and i will be kicked like a goon.
Caged with shackles and misfortunes of my life
I am trying hard to end this loneliness of mine.

With a feeling of uncertainity i have to hold back this pen for some days as i will  use it on the answer sheet.

Signing off for 10 days from the world of blogsphere...!!!

Thank you..!!!

Take away your mask...!!!

Take away your mask
let that hidden face,
come out and hit me
with the truth
suppressed in you for so long,
Do not you worry
cause i will survive again.

I fear looking your eyes
cause my heart ache
for the truth it hides from me
I know sooner it will rain.

Every moment spent with you
is a moment i treasure,
with all the chords
of my heart
in this deadly dessert.

Today i delved
into those eyes,
a way to the real you i found
but lost the game
as you put the mask again.

But now i fear
was that you
or someone else?
with whom i had
those moments of cheer.

Take away your mask
It will be hard
It will tear me apart
It will pain,
Do not you worry
cause i will survive again.

Losing you is not what i fear
life would also be the same
but deep down i know
I would never trust someone again.

Take away your mask
let that hidden face,
come out and hit me
with the truth
suppressed in you for so long,
Do not you worry
cause i will survive again.

Heard that...!!!

At times we are not sure if our staying matters  to someone.So it is always better to leave after trying  number of times rather dragging the relation(friendship or any other bond) and making things more difficult.

Heard that a scar is hard to heal
maybe the line is weird
but now i fear
cause i do not know how to deal.

Heard that grass is always green on the other side
but do not judge me ,
you dont know
how i dealt with the tide.

Heard that dreams are lost if not taken care
but i always tried to walk the miles,
still you ignored
tell me how you dare..?

Heard that expectation always hurt
but it turned a myth after we met,
i did expect your trust 
everything turned into a frozen dessert.

Heard that you are numb
but do not let that spark die,
the beautiful soul in you i witnessed 
must not turn into a meaningless scum.

Heard that you are in pain
remember the memories we had
they will make you go mad
hey just dance a while in the rain.

Heard that time always heal the wound
but i must not mess your life anymore
cause it is what others say me good at
now its my turn to leave
so here i  vow
its only few more days before i GO.


Thank you..!!!

MANJIL...!!!

maine majhi se mere manjil ka rasta pucha,
wo  burbura ke kehne laga manjil ka pata nahi
par tumhare karwan mein ye kashti tumhare sath rahega.
mai bhi anjaan tha duniya ke is khel se,kashti nikale chal pada
dariya ke jaise behta gaya is bhool bhulaiya mein .
aandhi ne mere manjil ko mujhse cheena
rah chalte humsafar ne bhi saath choda
mai tut gaya,bharosa khud se khoya
zindagi ki kashti ne mera sath nahi choda.
tasalli maine apne nadaan dil ko diya,
manjil kuch door hai,rootha hai
ye karwan thoda aur lamba hoga,
roothe hue un rishton ko firse suljha lenge
khoye hue lamhon mein apna aashiyan basa lenge.